Arailiberty

After we finished lunch today, no dessert would fit for me. I wanted nothing special, and maybe I didn’t want any dessert at all. Nonetheless I decided to take a glass of milk and some biscuits, something I used to love so much a few months ago and that I haven’t taken since Eric’s moved in.

My choice fall upon some shell-shaped cookies with bits of chocolate and I dipped them into the cup of milk (yeah actually I took a mug and not the glass you can see in picture ) and ate them… expecting this ecstasy feeling I always had when doing so and drinking the glass of milk…

I didn’t even finished the milk, I had no pleasure with the soaked cookies and the taste of that beverage… I was very surprised by this drastic change of preference as it used to be one of my favorite drinks… I can still remember the feeling of cold or not so cold milk falling into my throat and filling up my stomach… no more of that.

written by araili \\ tags: milk, preference

Since a few weeks I’ve been adding old pictures to my flickr account, taking pictures with my cell phone and adding them too, and I’ve also been looking at pictures of friends and of perfect “strangers” that I could find on the internet.

I’m curious about how people are perceiving their reality and pictures are but one mean to explore that aspect. This is what I want to develop currently and I’m more specifically looking for relationships between subjects, connections, movements… I’m not looking for something static though pictures are apparently static unless you look at those in Harry Potter

Avram had an eye for framing landscapes… I was rather crap at it myself but I was eager to learn. I’m still willing to experiment that though I’m attracted by closer subjects than landscapes.

Yesterday I realized I had at home many little objects that I could examine through this different perception lens.

Haha, writing all that I feel scattered because my mind is wandering in so many directions at the same time, exploring new possible avenues of exploration of this subject. One is also drawing, another is using colors, another is just feeling.

Well all that to say I’ve bought a new camera and I want to use it not necessarily to flood the internet with my pictures, but to explore the reality and its possible appearances.

written by araili \\ tags: exploration, photo, reality

I read an Elias session yesterday. The participant was Daryl (Ashrah), and I loved her session, as I usually do. She always mentions something to do with her health, her body consciousness, her opposition or her acknowledgments, and when I read it it is a reflection of my own questions or my own issues. This time, it was about a lump… and though I don’t remember if she mentioned where it was, I connected it to the lump I have on my back since a few years already, and I connected what Elias said also to my teeth.

With what he said, and how she described her own impressions, I could realize that I was wanting to remove them from my body consciousness. The lump on my back, the lump under my armpit, and even my teeth. For the lumps, it is in alignment with the current belief system of medicine : they are not a normal manifestation of the body and thus should be removed from it. Elias was telling that the method of the removal didn’t really matter as the goal so to speak was to remove the lump. Plastic surgery or energetic surgery, it’s all the same.

As for the teeth, it is not so obvious. Continue reading »

written by araili \\ tags: bodyconsciousness, health, teeth

I don’t know what I am. With this words I express my perception of myself as a thing. Though it is the way I was perceiving myself when I asked it. It is expressing of the separation I’m focusing upon, separation from my self, separation from my body consciousness. It is filtering all these informations and narrow the scope of my perception. It is not narrowing of my beingness though.

Lately I’ve been creating many tensions in my body consciousness and in my psyche. A splendid reflection…

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written by araili \\ tags: consciousness, focus

We did a projection this afternoon with Eric, as we did a small one yesterday night. I’d been quite overwhelmed lately by the energy, having these moments where seemingly my usual aspects are temporarily directed elsewhere, and my attention is mainly focused on my body consciousness processes, like I just can’t move my body or look at anything, I just have to let it flow and be on the sofa or on the bed or wherever it is. Once I was at the supermarket and I could just stand here… waiting a moment.

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written by araili \\ tags: Alienor, jorid, tile